I no longer felt not only the question
if the darkness or the teeth shining bloody in there
are the worst or both
I just enjoy the looking back
from the wounds I have
nature
Day 2962, control.
Daily picture, QuotesJ. Krishnamurti
The Krishnamurti reader
15 Life without a Shadow of Control
…So the question arises, can thought be aware of itself? You are thinking now, aren’t you? When I ask you a question, the whole movement of thinking arises. Right? Obviously. Now I am asking whether that thinking itself sees itself thinking? No, it is not possible. You see, I am asking whether one can live a life without having a single conflict, a single effort, without any form of control. We live with effort, we struggle; there is always achieving, moving, and so our life is lived in constant struggle, constant battle, constant contradiction-“I must do this, I must not do that, I must control myself, why should I control myself, that is oldfashioned, I will do what I want to do.” All that is a movement of violence. We are asking if it is possible to live without any shadow of control. Which does not mean doing everything you want to do. That is too childish, because you cannot. Where there is control there is conflict, there is a battle going on, which expresses itself in many, many different ways-violence, suppression, neuroticism, and permissiveness. So I am asking myself and you whether we can live a daily life without a shadow of control. To live that way, I have to find out who the controller is. Is the controller different from the controlled? If they are both the same, there is no need for control. If I am jealous because you have everything and I have nothing, from that jealousy arises anger, hatred, envy, a sense of violence. I want to have all that you have, and if I can’t get it I get bitter, angry, and all the rest follows. So can I live without jealousy, which means without comparison? Test it out. Can you live your daily life without comparing at all? Of course there is comparing when I choose something to wear. I am not talking about that. I am talking about not having any sense of measurement psychologically, which is comparison. If you have no measurement at all, will you decay, will you become a vegetable, do nothing, stagnate? Because you are comparing, because you are struggling, you think you are living, but if you don’t struggle, it may be a totally different form of living.
Day 2961, natures.
Day's pictures, PoetrySymmetry
natures neuroses
Day 2956, time.
Daily picture, PoetryIt all looks so perfect
the moments before you flower
it is not even a dream
at that moment
but a reality
caught in time
caught in your time
Day 2720, ridle.
Daily picture, HaikuI know I was here before I do remember as like the last time
Day 2718, climb.
Daily picture, HaikuI look at my hands the climb here they are aged don't know where I am
Day 2715, ugly.
Daily picture, PoetryMy ugly head was looking at my stare in your eyes both looking as if we were away
Day 2713, protruding.
Daily picture, HaikuI forgot about that protruding memory till I did look down
Day 2712, a shade.
Daily picture, HaikuA shade in darkness illuminating a dream where I hide my light
Day 2710, alone.
Daily picture, HaikuA long way alone a thin path I grew alone alone is my view
Day 2709, in between.
Daily picture, PoetryIn between the trees there is always a straight path a coincident
Day 2708, left.
Daily picture, HaikuI am all contrast after I no longer show left unconnected
Day 2707, looks like.
Daily picture, HaikuIt's almost evening my hair still looks like morning a long nothing day
Day 2706, still live.
Daily picture, HaikuThe dance is almost like a long summer over there's just a portrait
Day 2705, seems to be.
Daily picture, HaikuThe end seems to be falling slowly to a ground my decomposing
Day 2704, flew away.
Daily picture, HaikuI still feel the sun on my wings who flew away there was no goodbye