
I started growing
at just some point
and everything around me
moved away

I started growing
at just some point
and everything around me
moved away

The unknown stares you in your eyes mind and plays with you a solitary game

We are not always there
when our brain presents us
with an answer
with the form
we take as our own
wishful guess or certainty

The house I live in on an angel
is leaning me outside
I resist and insist
holding tight
to something unknown
and close
to me

I love the nets that once caught me
they are made so delicate
by hand
~
each knot
in this net
has a story
have you ever thought about that
Sometimes you expect something
even hope for it

I get so distracted
when I try to look
inside
~
your colorful hide
something inside
is clearly hidden
~
come play outside
lets paint your house
then let me in
to help you open
that window
the one that is
obviously
broken

My façade might look dirty to you
my thoughts inside to dark
~
but you holy man
with your mowed lawns and trimmed thoughts
a fifth column of tyrants disguised
~
you might find the likes of mine
everywhere and detest
pouring your world of petty resentment
into our rejection
~
you might seem to win
for now
and await the return of the heimat
and 1933
but the young of mind will more than ever
forget your past
you
and deny all of us your hateful gods
~
progress is not just a word
an act
or a wish
it’s something that happens
rolling downhill to a better place

Politics…
the problem is not what to do but how

Whenever I climb I am followed by a dog called ‘Ego’.
Friedrich Nietzsche

I looked up today
and saw that not everything
was in line


This is a video I took in 2007 of one of the first times I saw the midnight sun. It might not be that special for some, but for me, it was. I don’t know what my feelings were back then, but I made the video and put some dramatic music under it, so it meant something. I guess living in a new and strange country with strange people and a language I didn’t understand was not proof enough that I factually moved; I guess seeing the sun shining bright after midnight did the trick. This you can only see when you live this far from the equator; that might have been part of the emotions I felt.
Now I think about it; it is rather unique. Most of us are so used to the rhythm of day and night that the absence of that rhythm will be somewhat…disturbing…strange…think about it. Though I moved more to the south since that first experience, and we don’t have the midnight sun over here, it is still light during the night, the kind of light you have just after sunset. It is no longer special, I block all the light from coming into our sleeping room, and we found another rhythm to help us through the day and night cycle.

I wrote this poem in 2007 when it was still new to me that the sun never sets in the summer or that it gets dark where I live.