It is fascinating to see change
happen 
not in real time
but drawn out

I overlaid myself
on an old technical drawing
of myself

just to see

If you drift aimlessly on the wide open sea
a storm rocking your world around
sitting indoors and not be aware
eyes closed you living inside
the movements gone
a silence for now
but do you dare
to open your eyes
and go up there where rain
cold and wind might wake you up
showing you the world you expected
or one that you for long have forgotten

I want to warn you
that at any time
I can grab your feet 
and pull you down

I hope this will make 
the landing
of your face
on the floor

less painfu…
less surprising

maybe even
welcoming 

my memory has gotten worse 
over the years

I remember that 
it was better years ago

I think in 3D
In a 2D world

My main job 
is conversion

I have to say goodbye to someone
who does not know
and that is the problem

we will work together
a few more months
I will praise
condemn
a normal day

I will live in limbo 
and he in bliss 
honesty can never win