
I thought it was a throw away day
but then I unfolded it

I thought it was a throw away day
but then I unfolded it

I feel my free will
but are the wires I pull
stretching out into the world
attached only to what I think is real
~
is freedom not the joy you can have
of fantasizing the world you live in
being a cluster of stardust that can dream

Yesterday I found a switch
that could be turned up or down or all around
when I turned my head in welcome dispair over forgotten choices
I saw in the corner
this dirty old panel with lights and red buttons
symbols I recognize from the day’s before life
seems to have started
staring at it I remember slowly my little fingers hovering over these buttons
feeling for a choice

Sometimes you come across a switch
in life
one you don’t know what it does
and still you get the urge to turn
it up or down
which ever way feels good

I see the timer rests on zero
I forgot
do i still have to set it
or did it just go of




I wish a was a fly on the wall
so I can fly away
but instead
I am the wall

I am happy that my hands do the dirty work
so my mind can stay clean

Today I restored the window I started with yesterday as much as possible. The damage was mostly superficial, and I removed that what was rotten and replaced it with that what is new.
Like in real life the damage was worse where the window was most exposed to the environment and it’s lingering influence. Like a bad look or underhand remark water seeps down and crawls into narrow crevices where it slowly eats itself further inside.
This time we were lucky, the window was made of good quality wood and though it lived it’s whole life on the weather side it did well. I have to say that it didn’t help that later in life someone used modern sealant to prevent more water from coming in but this also prevented the already trapped water from ever moving out again.



A picture taken before the bomb fell
slightly damaged

Growing
at least flowers do it
but I don’t know towards what
