
It’s a shame that we all see it so differently,
or is it?
Is this proof that there is no truth, no god?
That is what I think, but you probably not.

It’s a shame that we all see it so differently,
or is it?
Is this proof that there is no truth, no god?
That is what I think, but you probably not.

In politics we presume that everyone who knows how to get votes knows how to administer a city or a state. When we are ill… we do not ask for the handsomest physician, or the most eloquent one.

I now see
that the door only opens
from the inside

I sit here now
listening
to me
from yesterday
when I realized
the best path
is the one I walked
the day before
yesterday
I don’t know
how I arrived
here

I am just
in my world
focussed
on nothing
but what is
important
to me


I don’t think that we have a free will. I believe it is essential that we act like we have one, and our nature and evolution have made it so that we all have the illusion that we have free will. There are many arguments against this idea, and as many in favor, I just ask you to look around and in yourself. If you look at us as a collection of inherited traits, the parts in you that come from your mother, father, and the rest of the family before them. That’s the “mechanical” part of you, including the brain, that will do most of the work once you start living. During this living, you will be exposed to your culture and the values and morals of your surroundings. You can have a wide range of influences, but you will never be influenced by everything. You will be unique but, at the same time, a unique representation of your experiences. Your experiences will make you react to what the world will throw at you. You feel that you have decided to vote left or right, but your past, the clothes you wear, and the friends you have have already decided your path, your choice. Your choices are your surroundings reflecting in you and who you are without conscious interference.
All the arguments going around inside you for why you choose the way you do are no explanations for why you consciously choose but for why you seem to have chosen. Think about what you do when you lift your arm. You only see it move, but many decisions are made hidden from you. All the muscles and different signals have to start moving without your conscious awareness. You think you move your arm, but at most, you have given it an order. The thoughts you have and the words you speak are more or less like that. You only become aware of what you think after your brain has done a lot of unconscious processing. You might order your brain to think but it does most of the work for you, without you.
We’re a government that believes in everybody having the illusion of free will.

We stopped looking for monsters under our bed when we realized that they were inside us.
Charles Darwin

Listen to the call of some
doors are not meant to be opened
try to listen unlocked
to be drawn
closer
a movement
a harmony wills
closes
your eyes
in awe

1. We are unknown to ourselves, we knowers: and for a good reason. We have never sought ourselves—how then should it happen that we find ourselves one day? It has rightly been said: “where your treasure is, there will your heart be also”; our treasure is where the beehives of our knowledge stand. We are forever underway toward them, as born winged animals and honey-gatherers of the spirit, concerned with all our heart about only one thing “bringing home” something. As for the rest of life, the so-called “experiences”—who of us even has enough seriousness for them? Or enough time? In such matters I’m afraid we were never really “with it”: we just don’t have our heart there—or even our ear! Rather, much as a divinely distracted, self-absorbed person into whose ear the bell has just boomed its twelve strokes of noon suddenly awakens and wonders, “what did it actually toll just now?” so we rub our ears afterwards and ask, completely amazed, completely disconcerted, “what did we actually experience just now?” still more: “who are we actually?” and count up, afterwards, as stated, all twelve quavering bellstrokes of our experience, of our life, of our being—alas! and miscount in the process … We remain of necessity strangers to ourselves, we do not understand ourselves, we must mistake ourselves, for us the maxim reads to all eternity: “each is furthest from himself,”—with respect to ourselves we are not “knowers” …

Even a plain white brick wall
can be interesting
a source of contemplation
and an inspiration
there are no rules
besides the one we make ourselves

349 In a dispute. -If we simultaneously contradict an opinion and lay out our own, our continual consideration of that other opinion generally disturbs the natural delivery of our own: it appears more purposeful, more severe, perhaps somewhat exaggerated.

I don't stand in your way
but please
let me look

You portray me so dark
is what she said to me
I replied
that it was just the light

Is it bad to be hopeful? While standings frozen and looking to the other side on a screen*.
I have written before that American politics is more important to me than the politics of any other country. I always say: if America farts, we all have to smell the stink. That said, politics over there is not left enough for my taste, but I am still happy that the wannabe Führer will have a hard time and the centrists are hopefully winning, that is at least a tiny step in the right direction.
*We had a band in the Netherlands, Het Goede Doel, that made a song about Belgie. One of the lyrics is about America: And when it comes to America, that country doesn’t really exist. I’ve been on a plane there, but maybe we landed in the Truman Show, and who knows, maybe all we see about America is what we see on the screens. It’s there to scare us. One thing I know for sure, it is definitely a show they perform for us.

There are many factors why there seems to be a resurgence of fascist-like sentiments. By fascism, I mean the tendency of large groups of people to walk behind a “strong” leader, like rats that follow the Pied Piper of Hamelin. Reading about colonialism and capitalism has something to do with it, but one of the better books to read is Escape from Freedom, also known as The Fear of Freedom, by Erich Fromm. In short, the book talks about the problems we humans have with freedom, or maybe better said, what we do to fill that void we feel when answers are absent.
The book was written in 1941, but as the following text shows, it could be written for our time where in America, half the population follows their dear leader blindly, but also in the Netherlands, where I come from where the word fascist might be a little bit to strong but following blindly of the leader not.
If we want to fight Fascism, we must understand it. Wishful thinking will not help us. And reciting optimistic formulae will prove to be as inadequate and useless as the ritual of an Indian rain dance. In addition to the problem of the economic and social conditions which have given rise to Fascism, there is a human problem which needs to be understood.
We forget that, although freedom of speech constitutes an important victory in the battle against old restraints, modern man is in a position where much of what “he” thinks and says are the things that everybody else thinks and says; that he has not acquired the ability to think originally – that is, for himself – which alone gives meaning to his claim that nobody can interfere with the expression of his thoughts.
Man represses the irrational passions of destructiveness, hate, envy, revenge; he worships power, money, the sovereign state, the nation; while he pays lip service to the teachings of the great spiritual leaders of the human race, those of Buddha, the prophets, Socrates, Jesus, Mohammed—he has transformed these teachings into a jungle of superstition and idol-worship. How can mankind save itself from destroying itself by this discrepancy between intellectual-technical overmaturity and emotional backwardness?
You can read the book here: https://pescanik.net/wp-content/uploads/2016/11/erich-fromm-the-fear-of-freedom-escape-from-freedom.pdf


The following is a translation from the back cover of my Dutch copy of the book:
When man finally freed himself from the rule of the absolute state the medieval church, his ambition for freedom seemed to be realized slowly but surely. However, it soon became clear that, freed from the shackles of the old society, he felt lonely and powerless and was only too willing to exchange his freedom for the secure dependence of some authority.
‘The fear of freedom’ provides a clear analysis of the frightening phenomenon that man cannot cope with his hard-won freedom and on the one hand flees into the blind worship of a leader or an all-powerful state, and on the other hand sacrifices his individuality by allowing himself to be smoothed out in cliché and ready-made forms according to the demands of public opinion. “This interesting book gives much food for thought. It aims to bridge the gap between economics and psychology and shows how a theory that only deals with the way in which one earns one’s bread or a theory that only considers the essence of man will never suffice. In his short but pertinent consideration of the escape into the so-called average personality, anyone who studies the American situation will find important insights.’ (Prof. Dr. Margaret Mead)
‘The tendency to relax the inhibiting effect of the super-ego*, whereby a stream of sentiment and fantasy is released, seems to be a phase in democratic development that recurs again and again. Periods of expansion and contraction alternate: a sudden outburst of previously repressed emotions heralds an era of expansion, until a feeling of fear arises in the Self, ‘the fear of freedom’ that is so excellently described by Fromm.’ (Prof. Dr. Karl Mannheim)
‘Fromm is perfectly within his rights to apply psychoanalytic theory to sociological problems, as he does here. He has done us a service by drawing our attention to the social and spiritual shift that accompanied the Reformation, and his description of the psychology of Nazism is very useful.’ (Prof. Dr. Karl Menninger)
* The superego reflects the internalization of cultural rules, mainly as absorbed from parents, but also other authority figures, and the general cultural ethos. (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Id,_ego_and_superego)