If I look up

when I think

~

I probably look at the sky

with less distractions

~

sometimes I close my eyes

 

23. INCURABLE.—The idealist is incorrigible: if he be thrown out of his Heaven, he makes himself a suitable ideal out of Hell. Disillusion him, and lo! he will embrace disillusionment with no less ardour than he recently embraced hope. In so far as his impulse belongs to the great incurable impulses of human nature, he can bring about tragic destinies and later become a subject for tragedy himself, for such tragedies as deal with the incurable, implacable, inevitable in the lot and character of man

Friedrich Nietzsche, Human all too human, Miscellaneous Maxims And Opinions.

Translated By Paul V. Cohn, B.A. New York The MacMillan Company 1913, Free license from Gutenberg.org 

23. Unheilbar. — Ein Idealist ist unverbesserlich: wirft man ihn aus seinem Himmel, so macht er sich aus der Hölle ein Ideal zurecht. Man enttäusche ihn und siehe! — er wird die Enttäuschung nicht minder brünstig umarmen als er noch jüngst die Hoffnung umarmt hat. Insofern sein Hang zu den grossen unheilbaren Hängen der menschlichen Natur gehört, kann er tragische Schicksale herbeiführen und später Gegenstand von Tragödien werden: als welche es eben mit dem Unheilbaren, Unabwendbaren, Unentfliehbaren in Menschenloos und -Charakter zu thun haben.

I am myself a staunch idealist, if I wasn’t I would probably been living in a big fancy house with matching job by now and I would care less about my place in life and the world in general. I am also curious and this goes hand in hand with being an idealist in the way Nietzsche portrays it above.

If for some reason you can accept life as it comes towards you and swing it in such a way that you can live with it then you should be happy. I don’t know if this is something that you can learn, looking at how the world is run I have to say that it would be nice if it is possible to learn. It seems to me that a lot of problems come from people that are not happy with what they have or what others have and they don’t. This whole wanting stuff (but also health, opportunities, future etc) is not unknown to me but it seems that a lot of people have a problem with not getting it or losing it. I am an idealist, and ideally, we would all be more relax and realize that most of this stuff we fight about is not worth fighting about. But I am more an idealist when it comes to finding ways in my personal life to always look at the bright side of life (whistle) but I am more of a realist when I look at what is possible…with this world so to say. It looks like an uphill battle end the only good thing that I probably accomplish with all this writing of mine is that I write this all on a computer so when I am dead, somewhere in the future, someone doesn’t have to carry boxes full of paper to the dump.