
The mountains in the distance is still catching some evening sun when your day in the valley gets darker

The mountains in the distance is still catching some evening sun when your day in the valley gets darker

I listened silently to what the stranger in me tries to say I only know that it moves me

For some reason it is often unclear what buttons to press for to get started but obviously easy what button to press to stop it at all

You cannot get ashore alone even though you were raised there

Did you know that many people believe themselves when they think and talk?

I try to just
cross the line between
random and order

If you are just focused on the steps one foot after another going up or down you don’t trust your self that wants to give you the time to look around

I am a mountain surrounded not by others but the white mist hiding what I merely wish

I wish I could see the world from an angle don’t know why but maybe it works

I sometimes stand still and even then, people think I forbid

It is hard to make decisions in a world, or better said, a universe that doesn’t care about you, that has no plan or conscious direction. Do I move here or there, and shall I take that job? These questions matter to you and maybe some people around you, but none of the people you meet on the street that day are thinking about your choices. It is personal to you, and your choice will only make a small wrinkle around you that no one further away from you will notice.
Your choice is trivial in the greater scheme of things and, in that sense, also for your life. Yes, moving to another city will change your life, but the factual choice to go, yes or no, is meaningless because either way, your life goes on, and only your opinion of that life matters; almost no one else cares remember. You can, and probably will, make sense of either choice, and when it turns out to be a bad choice, well… this might put more pressure on your next choice. Still, the fact is also that you never will know how life would have gone if you made the other choice; in this case, you can only compare your so-called bad direction with an imaginary other direction.
There are no objectively good decisions in life because there are no written rules or blueprints of how life should be. It’s probably best to throw dice or tap into your memories and feel how it was when you were eight and wandered around attracted by directions you didn’t even know were there, the time when the directions made the decisions.

Maybe it's a storm
you run aground
or a small leak
the end result is still
the same
you end up
at the bottom

A dozen waterfalls
bring what's fallen
down
trough a forest
they find
without knowing
the way

Did I want my life when I was young?

226 We immoralists! – This world as it concerns us, in which we need to love and be afraid, this almost invisible, inaudible world of subtle command, subtle obedience, a world of the “almost” in every respect, twisted, tricky, barbed, and loving: yes, it is well defended against clumsy spectators and friendly curiosity! We have been woven into a strong net and shirt of duties, and cannot get out of it –, in this sense we are “people of duty,” – even us! It is true that we sometimes dance quite well in our “chains” and between our “swords”; it is no less true that more often we grind our teeth and feel impatient at all the secret harshness of our fate. But we can do as we please: fools and appearances will speak up against us, claiming “those are people without duties” – fools and appearances are always against us

Your needles feel like they want to catch me