
It's dark here
but when I go down you can be still
see
life
the other room is dull
white
light
with downstairs a reflection
of a world
I can't see

It's dark here
but when I go down you can be still
see
life
the other room is dull
white
light
with downstairs a reflection
of a world
I can't see

So you say you can't even look at the other side
then look at the side you can
for why not

I’ve been a Dutch Marine for 3 years. Thirty years ago, and I still feel it. I still feel it, but not in a negative way. If I talk to an old colleague about the old days, we often also talk about what we do now and how we both miss the time when teamwork meant teamwork. As a Marine, you don’t have to tell your buddy to cover your ass; you know he does, just like any other member of the team; they all know what to do and what is expected.
The reason why we trained so hard to reach that level of cooperation is, of course, the danger that can be part of the job. I understand that, but I feel it is still part of me after 30 years. I often had and have too high of an expectation of the teams I worked in or led. I know that danger is not coming from the door in the corner of the office, but why don’t they close it when they know it’s a fire door? It sounds like a tiny thing, but for me, it is still a principle: attention to detail; in a combat situation, neglecting what is expected can harm you and others. I also understand the people who wonder why I bother; they have probably never bothered about things just outside of their reach. I have learned over the years to care less, but it eats at me.

Going down
turn around
that easy

Do you look in the mirror
when you pick a book

I am arriving at a corner
and turn around
to see the past
and the future

You say all these words
sentences
at the same time
is what I hear
confusion

Though we fit together
we also didn't

I know that so much falls around me
but believe me
you're so close to me
that most of it goes through me

I lined it all up
so nicely
only the light you shone
upon my creation
blemished my ideal

If you stand on the sideline
the roads don't always come
together

I leaned on you
blindly
hoping
it will last

I don’t think I want to forget you
I thought I wanted to
but you left something behind
something untouchable
the memory seems to be
even better
then the reality I have forgotten
now I live under a clear sky


I think peace is resting
like a dove
spreading its wings in silence





And except on a certain kind of winter evening—six-thirty in the Seventies, say, already dark and bitter with a wind off the river, when I would be walking very fast toward a bus and would look in the bright windows of brownstones and see cooks working in clean kitchens and and imagine women lighting candles on the floor above and beautiful children being bathed on the floor above that—except on nights like those, I never felt poor; I had the feeling that if I needed money I could always get it.
Slouching Towards Bethlehem

Even though the door was open
I couldn’t help
staring at the mesmerizing wall
surrounding it
it’s not that it stopped me
but it did