
I never opened that door
but the greyness of it all
tells me
its own story
I listen to it
in silence
and reach

I never opened that door
but the greyness of it all
tells me
its own story
I listen to it
in silence
and reach

I sometimes wonder
out loud
inside
are memories not better
then what is happening now
is life not best viewed in hindsight
is even the best experience not consumed
by the one just following
and following
lost in the moment
leftovers in memory
is the completion
the memory of the rush
cooled down
not better
can it not be remembered over and over
like a picture on the wall
but I was wondering
when is enough
enough
are 10 good memories not enough
or 50
a 100
a 1000
?

It's clear you are there
but your shine is not touched
you're a relic
you are only there
because of what you once did
your only justification
a potential
we no longer need

It all looks the same
if seen as one
only reflection shows
and individual inside

18 Narrow Souls
Narrow souls I cannot abide;
There’s almost no good or evil inside.
21 Against Airs
Those who inflate themselves are cursed
When pricked by a small pin to burst.
25 Request
The minds of others I know well;
But who I am. I cannot tell:
My eye is much too close to me,
I am not what I saw and see.
It would be quite a benefit
If only I could sometimes sit
Farther away; but my foes are
Too distant; close friends. still too far;
Between my friends and me, the middle
Would do. My wish? You guess my riddle.

Empty streets
the only nuisance is me
walking through the silence

Do you see all those lines
they go somewhere
and nowhere

When you're in the dark
together
It can be hard to find
the connection
especially when it is
untested

I love walking through the city
looking at the buildings in black and white
they represent

Being honest with yourself is the most frustrating thing. I still remember the first time I learned something new that put what I thought before to shame. Maybe you have had that too; you were so sure about a fact of life, an important life choice, or your self-image that it got turned around to the point that you don’t understand you could have ever thought differently, let alone the way you felt before, the day before. I have had these moments in my life, and though I have gotten new beliefs instead of the old ones, the new ones stand on shakier ground. What if these new beliefs are also wrong? I didn’t doubt myself before, so the absence of doubt now is not a guarantee anymore.
If you are honest with yourself, you know that your opinions are not worth much. This strong opinion that I have about this subject is caught in some kind of contradiction. I have to doubt my opinion, which you have to doubt.
I have always known that life is just a play, and we all play a role. Most people probably don’t know that they play a role and that the script is handed to them when they are born. When I was around 16, my favorite teeshirt was one with Freddy Mercury on it with big letters saying “The Great Pretender.” Back then, I already knew that something fishy was going on, that I was just playing my role, one that people seemed to expect, or at least I thought they did. But it took another 10 years before I knew that what we think is true is just that, we think it is true, and the role I play is just that.

I rushed upstairs
to you
I left behind all that could spill over

I am caught by life
when a question arrived
in me
it trapped me
we go together
now
I am still asking
not about my life
but just about
all that is
forever
I might have found a silence
a nowhere to go
but it is hard to hear others
that say nothing to the world
but live
in their silence
I would like to say nothing
someday
to someone

148 Poets as the easers of life. -The poets, insofar as they, too, want to make our lives easier, either turn our gaze away from the toilsome present or help the present acquire new colors by shining light upon it from the past. To be capable of this, they must themselves be turned back toward the past in many respects: so that we can use them as bridges to far away times and ideas, to dying or deceased religions and cultures. They are, in fact, always and necessarily epigones. Admittedly, we can say some unfavorable things about the means that they use to make life easier: they soothe and heal only temporarily, only for the moment; they even keep people from working toward genuine improvement of their circumstances, because they suspend and, by palliating it, discharge the passion that impels dissatisfied people toward action.

I threw away the lock
and with that
I realized
my freedom

If you find my door
I might let you in
just remember
I don't need
fresh air

I was standing in the middle of two roads
just above me
where I could not reach
a massive structure towered over me
and there
where there was no road
for some reason
It felt like it could stop time
or at least the movement of it