I don’t know if I choose to 
look through small and narrow windows
or prefer the wider view from my living room

either way
I will have my routines
after I have moved 
again

Is individuality blending in
with yourself within

or to stand out
with your inside
outside

what do we express
when we express 

I don’t have to look too hard
to see that I will never fit
through the door you opened for me

I have to bow down
or go on my knees
for you

but to be honest
I would do it for me.

I sit here looking at the bricks
that make up my wall

I think it is only the last layers
that now prevent me from pushing the wall
over
it is the weight of it all

why is it always the last 
and not the first bricks
are they not all the same in form 
and function

I like to look at my reflection
from the other side of the window

from there I can look inside
through my outside

and in the evening
the colors fade
with grey black and white

and something speaks
in forms and forms

I was just
just hanging around my shadow
looking together
the same directions
moving along

loving him
for the simpler form he is 
of me

If you take away the blues
you end up with a grey sky

and sometimes a red line

Reflection is important
just make sure you are not in the picture
or at most 
upside down

It is clear to me how to open the door
but it feels
you say
I shouldn’t

so why tempt me  

Down at the bottom it can be all dark grey
but be assured
at the top 
the greyness is lighter 

It is hard to look inside a dark room
for all involved

inside your eyes get used
but what do you see 

outside your eyes are used
to see what you know

My balcony
I don’t have one 
but I often stand on one 

looking at the sea
the one I don’t see
but for the distance
I do remember

I love the distance
where my thoughts disappear
and I don’t have to
I can’t 
catch them