
For some reason it is often unclear what buttons to press for to get started but obviously easy what button to press to stop it at all

For some reason it is often unclear what buttons to press for to get started but obviously easy what button to press to stop it at all

You cannot get ashore alone even though you were raised there

“Moral certainty is always a sign of cultural inferiority. The more uncivilized the man, the surer he is that he knows precisely what is right and what is wrong. All human progress, even in morals, has been the work of men who have doubted the current moral values, not of men who have whooped them up and tried to enforce them. The truly civilized man is always skeptical and tolerant, in this field as in all others. His culture is based on “I am not too sure.”
H.L. Mencken
“Faith is the surrender of the mind, it’s the surrender of reason, it’s the surrender of the only thing that makes us different from other animals. It’s our need to believe and to surrender our skepticism and our reason, our yearning to discard that and put all our trust or faith in someone or something, that is the sinister thing to me. … Out of all the virtues, all the supposed virtues, faith must be the most overrated”
Christopher Hitchens

We might all be stardust, but what we make of it is still incredible.
“The amazing thing is that every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements – the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution – weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way they could get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget Jesus. The stars died so that you could be here today.”
Lawrence M. Krauss,

“Skepticism relieved two terrible diseases that afflicted mankind: anxiety and dogmatism.”
Sextus Empiricus
If life as we know It and the earth, sun, and planets evolved out of stardust, we might conclude that there are no rules besides the ones that nature follows. Is e=mc2 the same as “thou shalt no steel”? Both are expressions of groups of humans about their truth, but one corresponds with a reality, and the other does not; the other is a mere opinion or dogma.
Being a skeptic forces you to ask these kinds of questions all the time, and if you do this, consequently, you will soon realize that there is not much in life that is a force of nature but coined by humans. But even the most thorough skeptic will soon realize that it makes sense to call a table a table and wood, wood. Just because we named these objects arbitrarily doesn’t mean we can’t do like the Romans when we are in Rome. But eating a pizza in Rome of the 1920s like they do is something else than approving the fascist regimes just because you moved to Rome.
The reason why we have a democracy is partly because of this fact; truth in politics is not much more than an opinion. No party or political direction can claim to be the truth, though they often like to do so. No law guided by nature tells us to be a communist or a capitalist; non of these directions can be correct as a law forever, at most for a short time, in a group of like-minded people.
For a true skeptic, politics is not much more than a deadly game played by immature children. The realist might say that you must play within the rules of the time you live and choose your side, but I don’t understand why you must play this game to the bitter end. I am pretty sure that the people we have chosen to be in charge play world politics as a game that is real and not like a game of Risk or Monopoly; for them, it is so real they will take a life, many lives to prove it.
We all make up the reasons why we do what we do, and it is hard to imagine a world where politicians, for instance, sit around the table and start the meeting by saying that they don’t know and that their customs are just that, customs. But for me, it is just as easy to think of a world like this as the world we live in; both are not grounded in reality, so why do we choose the ugly route and not the one where we all wonder?
“The skeptic, being a lover of his kind, desires to cure by speech, as best he can, the self-conceit and rashness of the dogmatists.”
“It is probable that those who seek after anything whatever, will either find it as they continue the search, will deny that it can be found and confess it to be out of reach, or will go on seeking it. Some have said, accordingly, in regard to the things sought in philosophy, that they have found the truth, while others have declared it impossible to find, and still others continue to seek it. Those who think that they have found it are those who are especially called Dogmatics, as for example, the Schools of Aristotle and Epicurus, the Stoics and some others. Those who have declared it impossible to find are Clitomachus, Carneades, with their respective followers, and other Academicians. Those who still seek it are the Sceptics. It appears therefore, reasonable to conclude that the three principal kinds of philosophy are the Dogmatic, the Academic, and the Sceptic.”
Sextus Empiricus

Did you know that many people believe themselves when they think and talk?

I try to just
cross the line between
random and order

If you are just focused on the steps one foot after another going up or down you don’t trust your self that wants to give you the time to look around

“Men are mistaken in thinking themselves free; their opinion is made up of consciousness of their own actions, and ignorance of the causes by which they are determined.”
Spinoza
Can we imagine a world where we first become conscious of what determines our actions and form our opinions accordingly?
I read Spinoza’s quote in the following way: we are conscious of shouting at another person and the anger we feel; consequently, our opinion is that we are angry at that person. What might have happened and caused your anger was the realization (at the crossroad of your conscious and unconscious mind) that you were caught in a lie, and you don’t want to admit it and protest loudly and angrily. And if the person was, in fact, insulting you, how does an insult actually hurt you? Most of the time, the feeling of anger has little to do with the person you are angry at but more with a complex history.
Another example is sports. If you catch a ball in mid-air, you might proclaim that you caught it, as in you guided your hand consciously to the ball by “telling” it where to go. The reality is that your hand can’t wait for your brain to make these decisions but has a shortcut to your eyes and other senses; we catch balls unconsciously, you might say. It’s the same with walking; we are not active in it, but it sure feels like we control every move. In reality, we merely point to a general direction and let our legs and the rest of our body do the rest.
Thinking about free will is hard. Try to think why you decided to get up and get some coffee. You might say you want some coffee, and that’s why, but where came that urge from? Why now coffee and not 5 minutes ago? Who and what in you “decided” that you want it now? You can say that the “I” that wants coffee we talk about here is (the whole of) you, including all your unconscious behaviors and needs. But most people feel some sort of central place within that is their “I”, the place where our thoughts come from. But then we must return to the quote above and use it to analyze this place we call “I”. Try it.
“The less the mind understands and the more things it perceives, the greater its power of feigning is; and the more things it understands, the more that power is diminished.”
“The more you struggle to live, the less you live. Give up the notion that you must be sure of what you are doing. Instead, surrender to what is real within you, for that alone is sure.”
“I realised that all the things which were the source and object of my anxiety held nothing of good or evil in themselves save in so far as the mind was influenced by them,”
Baruch Spinoza

I am a mountain surrounded not by others but the white mist hiding what I merely wish

Your self-image is partly formed by your past and what you remember, consciously or not. You probably have been in a situation like this: you get greeted by your classmates at a reunion with welcome cheers and fond memories; you might feel confused if you have lived all those years with the memory that you were a loner at that school and making friends was difficult for you. Why do you remember certain situations from the past differently than others do?
We have many memories and feelings about past events that we can never verify. Consequently, we can never be sure of what our “self” is or who we are because thinking of yourself as a loner instead of a more popular kid in the classroom might greatly affect your self-image. Despite this, most of what we remember and feel as a part of our self-image is probably true. However, it is hard to determine which parts; this might be a source of our insecurities about who we are.
We also add new memories every moment we live; they might not immediately affect your “self.” but some of them can have significant effects in the future without you realizing it. In this constant stream of input, finding the source of new and important events might be difficult when looking back, overwhelmed as we are by our senses. Your memories might feel focused at a certain time in the past when you remember them, but the reality is often that these memories are a collage of miner events put together later to fit your current self-image. We not only have a hard time locating the source of our memories at a later date, but we also play a part in their construction after the fact, and both of them are in constant motion.
We often feel our self, but many of us are also looking for our self. We often hold on to a self and let our inner workings or unconsciousness maintain that image of our self(s) through subtle manipulation. No matter what is happening, your self is constantly in motion, going nowhere but always becoming.
Gilles Deleuze has written about the self in his work; underneath, you can read some quotes. There is also a famous study about memories of the 9/11 attack that highlights the problems we have with memories; read it here: https://news.lafayette.edu/2021/09/07/remembering-9-11-are-flashbulb-memories-accurate-20-years-later/ or do a search for it.
“The self is only a threshold, a door, a becoming between two multiplicities.”
“To affirm is not to bear, carry, or harness oneself to that which exists, but on the contrary to unburden, unharness, and set free that which lives.”
“Lose your face: become capable of loving without remembering, without phantasm and without interpretation, without taking stock. Let there just be fluxes, which sometimes dry up, freeze or overflow, which sometimes combine or diverge.”
Gilles Deleuze

Life is unfair. Why do I say that? Because we are free and unfree at the same time.
“Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does. It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.”
Jean-Paul Sartre
Sartre takes our freedom to the extreme in that we can take our own life and end it at any moment. We are condemned to find a reason to live and not take the final step, and this finding of a reason is the meaning you give to your life.
If you are not satisfied with parts of your life, let’s say your work becomes meaningless to you, you can repeat to yourself all the reasons why you should keep this job, like feeding your family and paying the mortgage. These reasons are all valid for your particular life, but you as a human being can just stand up after lunch, walk away, and don’t stop walking till you are far away from your life, literally. We don’t do this because of moral reasons, society and responsibilities, but the fact that we can do it makes this tension between our freedom and unfreedom so interesting.
A second problem is that there is no general reason for life or to keep on living besides the fact that we do. Our basic instincts functions like eating and breathing extend our life till its natural end without much effort on our part. You can believe in some sort of god or afterlife, but that is not more than a personal reason to live for and not one that is grounded in what we know, the facts.
We humans, thinking animals, have, through our living together, invented all kinds of reasons why we live, and we have written books full of rules that tell us what to do and what not to do. We all know this, even if you can’t read or end up in a society that is alien to you, you know that there are rules, and you try to follow them. We are conditioned to follow these written and unwritten rules, but none of these rules relate to any facts about life. The only rule with any basis in facts is that we can ignore all these man-made rules and regulations. We can ignore a red light at a crossroad; no one stops you the next time you approach this symbol that forbids… you are free to make a choice.
All these rules are, of course, necessary to let our society function, but like Sartre said, we are ultimately free to stand up and go our own way, we are condemned to be free.
“My thought is me: that’s why I can’t stop. I exist because I think… and I can’t stop myself from thinking. At this very moment – it’s frightful – if I exist, it is because I am horrified at existing. I am the one who pulls myself from the nothingness to which I aspire.”
Jean-Paul Sartre

I can see from your outside
that you are abandoned

I wish I could see the world from an angle don’t know why but maybe it works

I sometimes stand still and even then, people think I forbid

Of three metamorphoses of the spirit I tell you: how the spirit becomes a camel; and the camel, a lion; and the lion, finally, a child.
There is much that is difficult for the spirit, the strong reverent spirit that would bear much: but the difficult and the most difficult are what its strength demands. What is difficult? asks the spirit that would bear much, and kneels down like a camel wanting to be well loaded. What is most difficult, 0 heroes, asks the spirit that would bear much, that I may take it upon myself and exult in my strength? Is it not humbling oneself to wound one’s haughtiness? Letting one’s folly shine to mock one’s wisdom?
Or is it this: parting from our cause when it triumphs? Climbing high mountains to tempt the tempter?
Or is it this: feeding on the acorns and grass of knowledge and, for the sake of the truth, suffering hunger in one’s soul?
Or is it this: being sick and sending home the comforters and making friends with the deaf, who never hear what you want?
Or is it this: stepping into filthy waters when they are the waters of truth, and not repulsing cold frogs and hot toads?
Or is it this: loving those who despise us and offering a hand to the ghost that would frighten us?
All these most difficult things the spirit that would bear much takes upon itself: like the camel that, burdened, speeds into the desert, thus the spirit speeds into its desert.