What do I think? What do we do when we think? The thinking I am talking about here are your deepest thoughts, the unthinkable thoughts. Not in the sense that they are immoral or need to be kept away from the outside world, there are just no words to express them. What’s going on in your mind when you feel and have these deep thoughts, the thoughts you can’t hear because there are no words attached, yet. What’s going on inside us has more to do with an abstract painting or music that moves around in your mind. It’s like a rhythmless rhythm that dictates you the words you know from your past and are in your language. The rhythm looks strange, and we try to interpret it, but we are forced to call the parts anger, jealousy, fear, regret, or sadness, all the things that stop us in our tracks of a deeper investigation and understanding. These descriptions of what you seem to feel come and go and mold for you the answer you most need, want. But if you don’t want them, you will be speechless, but your feelings will still be, just that.

This is a rewrite of part of an old post, but it also fits well with a series I watch now. It is the old Dragon Ball with a young Goku. He is so innocent that he often asks what his feelings mean because he has not learned them during all those years living secluded from a world that normally would have taught them what jealousy and shame mean. Most of us already know how to call certain feelings and the reaction that is appropriate; you could say that we are no longer free.